[he knows she doesn't mean it to sting, but it does -- an echo of what he's been telling himself all weekend, all well and good that you're sorry, that you're sad, but that doesn't bring cassian back, does it? it doesn't undo what you did, how this all started? it's you, it's you, it's all you, koby.]
you know about that? i mean. did you get pictures too?
[a quiet, fearful moment, but -- faith barely knows him, doesn't have the affection or attachment that would make her inclined to overlook what he'd done. there's almost a relief in that.]
It was my fault. What happened. Angelus had my sealskin last month and he asked for information on everyone, and I gave it, and he used that to hurt people. So. That's why.
OH, right, yes, because I died in October once a month I turn into a seal and whoever gets my sealskin when I change back can tell me to do anything they want for one night and I'll do it.
[ This is the first time that Faith has ever felt like she got lucky in October. Maybe that's why she can't let Koby take on guilt that's rightfully hers. ]
but he would've gotten that info with or without you trust, this one's on me
well, it's not yours and B thinks everything's her fault
but i'm the one who could've killed him last month and instead i let him walk i'm the one who told cassian i'd look out for him and then got there too late
You wouldn't have "let him walk" if you thought he was going to hurt anyone, right? And you were helping us find Amy and Giles -- I was there, I remember.
He made me useful for a reason. Because it would cause the most damage, if he acted with the knowledge I gave him. I didn't do it on purpose, but it was still me sitting there, talking. Making this easy for him.
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Date: 2026-01-19 04:27 am (UTC)you know about that?
i mean.
did you get pictures too?
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Date: 2026-01-19 06:17 am (UTC)i tried to get to him but i was too late
he sent you PICTURES?
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Date: 2026-01-19 03:44 pm (UTC)That's
Not GOOD, but
I'm glad she wasn't alone.
He thanked me in blood.
The pictures were sort of in keeping with that, I think.
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Date: 2026-01-19 09:58 pm (UTC)alone, i mean
[ Faith doesn't feel like she helped much, but at least Max didn't have to handle the body herself. ]
that's right
with everything else i had forgotten about that
what was the thanks for?
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Date: 2026-01-19 10:40 pm (UTC)[a quiet, fearful moment, but -- faith barely knows him, doesn't have the affection or attachment that would make her inclined to overlook what he'd done. there's almost a relief in that.]
It was my fault. What happened.
Angelus had my sealskin last month and he asked for information on everyone, and I gave it, and he used that to hurt people.
So.
That's why.
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Date: 2026-01-19 10:58 pm (UTC)uh
your what??
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Date: 2026-01-19 11:06 pm (UTC)OH, right, yes, because I died in October once a month I turn into a seal and whoever gets my sealskin when I change back can tell me to do anything they want for one night and I'll do it.
Sorry, I should've explained that better.
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Date: 2026-01-19 11:19 pm (UTC)that sucks
[ This is the first time that Faith has ever felt like she got lucky in October. Maybe that's why she can't let Koby take on guilt that's rightfully hers. ]
but he would've gotten that info with or without you
trust, this one's on me
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Date: 2026-01-20 02:09 am (UTC)[a pause.]
It can't be your fault AND Buffy's AND mine.
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Date: 2026-01-20 05:50 pm (UTC)and B thinks everything's her fault
but i'm the one who could've killed him last month and instead i let him walk
i'm the one who told cassian i'd look out for him and then got there too late
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Date: 2026-01-21 03:41 am (UTC)And you were helping us find Amy and Giles -- I was there, I remember.
He made me useful for a reason. Because it would cause the most damage, if he acted with the knowledge I gave him. I didn't do it on purpose, but it was still me sitting there, talking. Making this easy for him.